Tuesday, March 29, 2005
People would have had a particular opinion abt me prior to the 'Vicissitudes of Life' series; and after it, the verdict might be somewhat different. Quite natural. In fact, if I were someone else reading this story, I perhaps might not find the author very credible, given the impulsive decisions taken in the past.
But is it really possible for me to prove my integrity? I can just say all the commotion was unintentional, I never wanted to play around with people's lives. But who would take my word? My Ji would, my Lord would, (as I see from the comments of my last post, abhinav wud & perhaps a few other might too!) and all my efforts to actively convince anyone else are stalled.
Anyway, I've learnt a few crucial lessons. The most important of them being never to dream, never to expect anything from others. This way we can atleast keep the unbearable disappointments at bay. The extreme blow R dealt me in yesteryears continues to have its impact. I'm the once-bitten-forever-shy types with the result that I've become very wary abt expecting anything in life. But sometimes I do give in to the temptation & end up causing a lot of angst to this already sensitive heart of mine. Well, I'm trying...practice makes one perfect, they say...
Moving on, the festival of colours just went by & I feel bad abt not wishing the world on time. Nevertheless, a very belated happy Holi to anyone who comes by this message. It's never too late to send across good wishes, is it? :) Also, it was Daddyji's (Ji's father; I'm still undecided on wut to call Ji's parents ;)) birthday this Saturday. So belated warm birthday wishes to him too.
These days there's just no work at the office. I study for my exams & when I've had enough of that, switch over to my blog, after making sure that no one's prying around. On the home front, mom's going out of town tonight for the case hearing. I'll be alone. Well I'm used to it by now; just hope my viewing of Jeepers Creepers last Friday doesn't come in the way of my bravery! And I have Kahaani Ghar Ghar Ki, Kyunki..., Kahin to Hoga and Bewitched to give me company, in addition to my books ;) lol!