.....my life lies in those eyes that have me slain

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Awaiting the Judgement

The revered court will pronounce its judgement, on the feud going on between mom & dad, in eight days from now. The war between love and hatred legally culminates on April 22nd. But otherwise, is there really any end to it? Unfortunately, the situation would exist till our last breath.

Dad wins if the court grants divorce, else loses. For mom the scenario is quite the reverse. But for me it's defeat either way. I can't even show or tell mom that I am breaking from within, bcoz then she would totally collapse; and if I refrain from discussing any of these matters with mom, she gets strange ideas that I care a damn what she goes through. My dearest friends (N & NL), dad, bro, Ji - all are away from me. And my Lord won't come down to let me cry on His shoulder, though I plead with him to do so - atleast once!

Just where on earth can I go to unburden myself? Where can I go & cry, without people throwing nasty glances at me, without being told that I must stop crying, so that I run out of tears to cry anymore, for once and for all?

Hope I am not accused of basking in self-pity...this blog is all the place I have in the world...

Sending up a small prayer...

Itni shakti hamein dena daata...
Mann ka vishwas kamzor ho na...

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Remembering the greatest ship of all times...the ship of dreams...
RMS Titanic, which sank to the depths of the Atlantic, 93 years ago...


Hey V , a lotta your blogger friends though would never meet you understand you and have progressed to respect your feelings as we have travelled with you and your blog.so a lot of people undertstand you.

all the best.
# posted by Anonymous Anonymous : Thursday, April 14, 2005  

hi V

aftr reading ur blog,the lines of a song came2my mind....
kch paa kar khona hai
kch kho kar pana hai
jeevan ka matlab to
aana aur jaana hai....
bt all v cn do is walk thru the ways of life....tc

# posted by Blogger sona : Friday, April 15, 2005  

hi v
altho we all may not be with u but still our feelings r with u
we all have sumhow created an invisible bond of friendship

u knw wat
i always and (will) always admire and praise u for ur strength of ur soul

God is there to grant u even more strength

# posted by Blogger saurabh ohri : Friday, April 15, 2005  

hi there V.. words we say might not mean anything, and will bring you scant consolation.. but we can offer you a listening ear that will always be here.. take care of yourself.
# posted by Blogger s! : Friday, April 15, 2005  

In all the most defining moments of our life you will almost always be alone. The only entity that you can reach out for during this time will be God.
The rest of the world will be a spectator, a third party, which at best will listen and pray.
Take care of ur Mom & urself
# posted by Anonymous Anonymous : Friday, April 15, 2005  

at times i feel tht Y GOD tests his beloved children so much? i shout out to HIM but i get no answer....but i keep shouting to get an ans sum day...and we all there with ya.. praying with and for ya..

# posted by Blogger rohit kaul : Saturday, April 16, 2005  

well, i am touched to find so many of u empathize with me...

thanks for ur understanding abhinav, sonika, saurabh, anonymous and rohit! and saurabh, i fervently hope God grants me more strength.
# posted by Blogger Vidhi : Monday, April 18, 2005  

Take care. It's generally the worst in life that brings out the best in you....and I'm sure you are doing better than anyone else would in the same situation.....

As for understanding, no one ever does understand. You get sympathy and people (blogworld) will empathize.....but the best support you have is always within....

You have strong faith (something I lack totally) and have a support system apart from that as well.

I'm sure you'll do great mademoiselle.

All the best....
# posted by Blogger Darth Midnightmare : Thursday, April 21, 2005  

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