.....my life lies in those eyes that have me slain

Monday, June 06, 2005

Tracks of my Tears

I'm slightly down since the last couple of days. Two nights back mom told me and my bro, 'Please ask dad to come back...years are just rolling by, life is drawing to an end. How long more like this?' The lump in my throat was so huge, it hurt...I couldn't speak. My bro gave her some consolation. I moved to the other room, shut myself in and released the water.

Last week we visited out paternal grandparents. I spoke to my grandmom at length about sundry topics. Haven't spoken to her like that in a long long time. It was then she told me that she had suffered tremendously at the hands of my grandfather. But being uneducated and unable to fend for herself, she was left at his mercy. And at this age when they are supposed to be free from all worry, they have their son's broken home to deal with. She doesn't have anyone to pour her heart out to - both sons are away leading their own lives - bcoz of which she was elated that I spent time with her. Though it disturbed my mental order and drew my attention back to the issue I'd managed to push to the far end of my mind, the satisfaction of bringing a smile to someone's face is immense.

All of a sudden, I feel much more responsible. The separation of my parents is likely to have much more severe repersussions than I ever thought of. I would refrain from speaking abt them right now...suffice to say that if left to myself, I can handle reasonably tough situations; but when it comes to giving answers to others, I would rather flee to some unknown place. Dad keeps telling me things might not go as planned always. One must keep thinking of alternatives...and I feel I've woken up to this truth.

Incidentally, y'day was special for VISA again...in 2002, Saahil came straight to my mom and told her he wanted to marry me! Happy Anniversary again to my dear Saahil :)! Loving you is a pleasure like no other!


vidhi...there'll be gud days and bad days in life.If all things bcum gud then life'll bcum a dream which is not possible.c in span of 2 days u had a sad moment and a gud one.....I m sure tht a gal of ur resolve will sure be able to cope up with it....remember u r not alone....our gud wishes r always with ya...and do not try to hold bk ur tears.....unlike wat ppl say crying doesnt mk u week..it makes u strong..stronger frm within.....

take care
# posted by Blogger rohit kaul : Tuesday, June 07, 2005  

Moments come and moments go,
And memories leave scars untold,
And when the dam gave way and broke,
A old way anew began to show....

Sometimes it's all too easy to forget one's place in the scheme of things. One's own scheme of things.... Problems will always abound...and for a certain reason, I empathize. Take care...and keep the chin up...

# posted by Blogger Darth Midnightmare : Tuesday, June 07, 2005  

Take care :)

# posted by Anonymous Anonymous : Wednesday, June 08, 2005  

vidhi i forgot to mention it in my last comment. Since in most of ur posts u use sum song lemme also do tht...

zindagi ki yehi reet hai
haar ke baad hi jeet hai
thode aansoon, thodi hansi
aaj gum hai to kal hai khushi

take care
# posted by Blogger rohit kaul : Thursday, June 09, 2005  

--V-- for Victory ... never let these feelings pull u down u have Sahil , ur bro. and ur mother to take care of ..Be strong whatever mite come.. I know its very easy to say .. but God is always there and he is the one who gives strength.. Believe in GOd and everything would be fine..

jab bhi I am sad I listen this song of Page 3


# posted by Blogger Manish : Friday, July 01, 2005  

why my comment is not being shown in ur post :(
# posted by Blogger Manish : Friday, July 01, 2005  

thanks for the positive words mani...it pulls me down only momentarily...but then saahil's love makes my life beautiful!

congrats once again for ur wedding!
# posted by Blogger Vidhi : Wednesday, July 06, 2005  

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